charlie <3

so in August, i went to go hang out with my brother (Joey) and his wife (Jen) and their baby, Charlie! :] Charlie just turned 8 months old a couple days ago-- praise the Lord! He, i must say, has the bluest eyes of any baby ive ever seen! (and believe me, ive seen a lot ;) ) so i thought i would post some of the pics i took of him, and of him and his daddy, on here to celebrate that :] (plus i just need to catch up on my pic posts)






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however oppositely i seem, i am not at all a confident person. i dont trust well, and yet i do at the same time. Its confusing when i type it, but i know what i mean, which is mainly what matters at the moment. I know, and God knows :]
My parents are the strongholds that i run to when i need support. they and my siblings help me as i mature towards adulthood, and i am continually grateful for them. But what is it in a person that makes it so difficult to trust? is it purely a sinful nature? or is it because we know our own faults that it makes it frustrating and a trial to trust to someone else whom we also know deals with sin?
Tomorrow morning we leave for VA, and i am anxious. Under normal circumstances (then again, no circumstance seems to fit the term "normal") i would be exuberant and jumping for joy, but now i am just waiting for a phone call, a txt, or something! having not heard from this person in almost 2 weeks since the now-outstanding question, my already painfully small amount of patience is running thin, and those around me are having to suffer me jumping each time a phone rings, staring into space while in the midst of setting the table, so on and so forth. I know , I know that the call may never come, and it needs to not be such a big issue. but it is, and that knowledge isnt computing to my subconsious. *sigh* i have a very long way to go before i become what i should be as a Preacher's daughter, especially one so revered by others as my father is. Not to mention how much further i have before i become as sanctified as my Heavenly Father demands. One thing i cant wait for heaven-- i wont have to worry about not trusting fully!! Only at night do i let these thoughts come to the front of my mind for more than a few moments. ...... maybe i should go to bed earlier........

well, i do need to finish packing- just needed to think this through, and type out my thoughts. goodnight and may God be with you!

b.c He Lives and Reigns

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long time

its been a very long time since i last blogged on here, nothing much has changed (except me, but thats on a different day). Uncle Hugh has come back! praise the Lord for His undeniable mercies in every area of life :] since then, his new wife and youngest son have become Christians as well. Having the whole family again is one of the greatest blessings this year. Mom and dad had a fantastic time in Scotland with the Vision Forum people-- the pictures are incredible! Some day, if the Lord so blesses, i hope to travel to all 50 states, and almost everywhere in Europe, just to start.
I still have 2 highschool courses to finish up, 3 if you count the last 2 chapters of Trig. I know i could have completed all this last year, if i had really put forth the effort, but i dont really mind. However this year my goal is to be done with Chemistry for sure by the end of January. What with Dad's upcoming knee surgeries maybe this will give our whole family a spell at home, to really finish this place up and make it how we want it. Cello is going well, though one of our new songs in orchestra-- i think the composer must have had it out for cellists. maybe he dated one, and they had a bad falling out when he wrote this. or maybe he just hates strings in general, though for the life of me i cant figure out why he would be writing orchestral compositions then. ... i dunno, just a theory. Aunt Judy wrote a new song, called the Myspace song, lots of fun to sing, and the message is very to the point. i cant wait to make a youtube video for it, and get it out to the world :D I hope the Lord will use it to get the message across to other Christian young people about how the world really does watch everything we do and what we say, even online and to our friends.
i feel as though i could be doing more with my photography, but im unsure as to the next step i need to take. i would love to make this a "career" as i can do photography and still be a stay-home wife and mother (someday! ) when i grow up, and good photography will never become obsolete. I love Ric Ergenbrights work, as a Christian photographer, he is one of my inspirations. I am surrounded by all these incredible photographers in my friends, how can i make it in the art world?? The Lord has the answers so im just trusting in Him.
Well, today is Drama Class with Mrs Minkoff-- im so glad my 2 best friends are doing drama this year as well!!!!!! hoorah!!!!!! Tomorrow we leave for Abingdon, Va for a wedding. and who knows whats going to happen next week-- its in His Hands.

need to run, ttyl Lord willing

-me-

long time

It has been much too long since i have updated on here- my apologies! My laptop that i have at the moment, the Internet Explorer is messed up (and yes ive had it checked out, but they couldnt figure out the problem) so it wont let me get on here and update. Thankfully i use Mozilla Firefox on this computer as well, so i just found out this will let me update :)

Since i dont feel like catching you up, Im just going to start from today. Went to Barnes and Noble/ Starbucks while mom was at the dentist's office. If i could, i would do that at least 2 times a week-- just go and sit in either barnes and noble/starbucks or some coffee shop, or an atlanta bread company, and just work on my laptop and listen to my (new) ipod. It is one of my favorite things to do, be around people and books and/or the smell of cofffee (love the smell dislike the taste ;) and still get to listen to my music and work on my hw or pictures or something. Yes, i am such a dweeb. YAY. lol
I learned two new words today: serendipity and perfidious. Serendipity, according to the description of the man at starbucks, equals up to "blessed fate" of two people accidentally meeting and ending up either good friends or acquaintances or such. And perfidious, in reference to my new book for literature, The Synonym Finder, pertains to treachery. I love learning new words, and then trying to insert them into my vocabulary. The English language is so full and brilliant, its a shame that people do not choose to appreciate it. Mom and I were discussing in the car today my paper (that yes i am procrastinating on at the moment-- sry!) on Idylls of the King, by Alfred Lord Tennyson. The paper is going to be about the treachery and loyalty found in the last section of Idylls, entitled The Passing of Arthur, and its effect upon Arthur. Its a very interesting subject, but i am finding this assignment the most difficult so far, as nothing seems to flow, and that is annoying me. However, as i was saying, she and i were conversing as to how the more you read classic and well-written literature, the more round and developed your life becomes. I had just been commenting on how the steam seen on the road (it was raining quite hard and traffic was horrible) surrounding the cars reminded me of the phrase used in Idylls, "deathwhite mist". it is referring to the impossibility of being able to tell who was good and who was bad in the last battle, for not only was the mist horrendous to see through, because of the treachery one was unable to trust anyone on the field. That is actually a point in my paper (that i am still not through with..............yipe........). Also, our view of the world as christians most definitely enriches our lives, and our want to use everything God has given us to glorify Him! What a stupendous God rules over us!! Praise Him :)

It was my sisters birthday today (im still thinking of this as the 4th)!!!!!! hoorah!!!!!!!!!!! I love her so much-- i cannot wait, she and her girls are coming into town thursday so she and daddy can have their annual lunch at the Swan Coach House, where dad takes she and i for our birthday lunches, since each of us were four. What a daddy :D So, they are coming thursday, and then on friday we are going to try to go to the zoo if at all possible. I didnt even know there was a zoo in Atlanta! Now that is sad..

my favorite band is still the Jonas Brothers. lol haha yes i really do like their music a lot, their lifestyle is mostly recommendable (except they do concerts and such on Sunday, which upsets me cause it is against Gods law so they should know better!), and they proclaim and seem to be VERY strong believers! score!!!! :) and yes, they are incredibly handsome (no i wont degrade them or myself to calling them "hott".."hot" is when you burn yourself by touching a cooking stove when it is on. it is NOT three great guys who have wonderful talent for music) I even have met some now good friends online because of them. One of thems name is Arisa and she calls me her "sissy" now. yay! :) she is such a precious girl, and yes ive checked her up so i know she is legit. and not some weird stalker person. she and i, along with about 3 or 4 other girls on IM that weve met, all want to meet up someday at disneyland (they ALL live in cali. except me, obviously, who is on the other side of the country!! oh bother ;) but yes, i doubt it will ever happen because i would have to convince my parents to let me go, and find people crazy enough to want to go across country and meet 5 girls we dont even know in person. at disneyland. hahaha it would be so incredibly neat however. :) Arisa, the girl that calls me her sister, is a Catholic, but by our conversations so far, i really do believe she is a true believer :) she wants me to do her senior pictures in two years when she turns 18. lol now that would be a job.. no, i must admit, what would be surpassing incredible would be to actually meet and get to hang out with the jb for about a week. watch them do a concert from backstage, get to meet their parents and younger brother frankie, get to know them. Marie and i love talking to each other about them, because not that many of our friends are jb fans like us.. haha we are just crazy :D but we have determined that yes, though we have already picked out our own "jb"to have a "crush " on, we dont really but like all three because of their music and their christianity. honestly, i would rather be good friends of theirs than have one of them (or all of them) like me more than a good friend. to me, friendships surpass "love" , especially at this age, because i am too young to be married to someone, can only love one person at a time, and will want to spend all my time either daydreaming about or being with him. with a friendship , you can have tons of other friends as well, you are never too young to have a deep and lasting friendship, especially based upon mutual love for the Lord (as all things should be but arent), and the Lord more than he is on your mind and heart. and its not awkward!! awkwardness is so dratted annoying.. because then neither person is being themselves, so you get the wrong impression, and everything is not as it really is.

well, i suppose this is long enough for a new post :) here are some pictures of annie and i, in celebration of her birthday! :D

because He truly lives and reigns
me
annie and i at christmas, a long while back :)

still a long while back, but not as long ago.. prob. about 2 years or so.. yeah the difference is incredible! lol



at the Atlanta Aquarium, i know this was about two years ago, cause that is jessie she is holding in her arms! and jessie is almost 3 :)

well, this weekend im going to try to get a GOOD UPDATED picture of annie and i , and then ill put it up.

until then however~

family christmas and some fantastic presents!

Looking over this past year, as i consider everything that has happened, everything that i have done, the Lord has been so gracious and has continued to bless me, especially when i dont deserve anything.
Last night and today was our family's Christmas, where my siblings and their families came over and hung out, opening presents and such. Such presents included some luggage that ive really been wanting, a beautiful silver cello charm for my necklace, and an antique box and ring from Scotland. THEN i got a call from a friend of mine, Mrs Jenny Abernathy, telling me to come pick up a Christmas present---AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ITS A CANON REBEL XTi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND a photo printer! i truly couldnt believe it-- i think i cried practically the whole way back home, and still havent been able to grasp at the right words to describe how grateful and ecstatic i am not only to the Abernathys (THANK YOU SO MUCH MR. STEVE AND MRS. JENNY!!!) but to the Lord who put this on their hearts-- praise God from whom ALL blessings, both spiritual, and physical, and material, flow!
so, in honor of my new camera, here is a semie "photo-shoot" i did with my niece J. Lu, and then a few random pics-- with my new camera!! :)






Merry Christmas!

B.c He Lives and Reigns

me

witnessing and other such everyday events

at least, witnessing SHOULD be an everyday event-- sadly, for me it is not. Lord willing, however, that will change. Soo, as i previously stated in my last post, (at least i think i did..i meant to!) i was blessed to have heard Mr. Ray Comfort speak at the San Antonio Christian Independent Film Festival. if you are not familiar with Mr. Comfort, PLEASE check him out! his website is: http://www.wayofthemaster.com/ . He and his business partner, Mr. Kirk Cameron(who was not at the Film Festival) run this incredible evangelism ministry! Anyways, while listening to him speak, he brought up his favorite tract to hand out to people-- a million dollar bill. As im sure you know, there is no such thing as a REAL million dollar bill *at least not that i am familiar with* . yet, if there was one, this is what it would look like!!




So, mom and i bought a packet of "million dollar bills" to witness with!
On the first plane, i was sitting about 10 rows behind my mom. "ok" i think"great time to witness, after all, he said planes are the best places to witness. if they dont want to hear about it, just show them 2 things: the door, and the fact that they are 20.000 feet off the ground, with no parachute..the worst thing that can happen is them saying no, right?" so . i turn my head to the left, and im sitting by this nice, middleaged looking woman, reading some secular book. "no problem" i say to myself.." umm, hi! how are you today? whatcha reading?" .." oh its called _________________ by such-and-such." ok all good so far. she asked me" what are u reading?" "oh its called Hollywood be Thy Name by Mr. Ray Comfort." " ok nice". a few minutes pass.. "um btw, would you like a million dollars?" No." :/ :/ :/ :/ i sit quietly for the rest of the hour and 5 min flight. as she leaves she says "have a nice day!"....... ook so first time, didnt go so great. but what did he say about being afraid? *thinks back* "the worst thing that could happen is for them to say no............ remember, all these unsaved people could die and go to hell because you were too selfish to humble yourself and risk getting told no." alright, so i know i need to try again. Next flight, i walk in the plane, and the stewardesses are standing there, welcoming us on to the flight. (yes i know its politically correct to call them flight attendants. and your point is?) As i walked in, one of the stewardesses (her name was Paula) said" oh how i wish i was young and thin like you [talking to me]. oh well, guess i should start wishing for something more realisitc, like a million dollars." WOW! what an opportunity! but, b.c there were about 20 million other people behind me, i decided to wait and give it to her when i saw her during the flight (it was almost 3 hrs long). for the first 2 hrs, i didnt see that woman, but saw and met the two other stewardesses-- i gave each of them million dollar bills and got to witness to them!! Praise the Lord! they were really happy about it :) So, after those hrs had flown on by (sry couldnt resist it ;) I saw Ms . Paula again. as she was walking by , i stopped her and said "excuse me ma'am, did i hear you say you were going to wish for a million dollars? here you go" guess what! it turned out she was a christian already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD! so, for the rest of the flight *until she had to prepare for landing* mom and i got to encourage her in the Lord. heres most of what i can remember about her story: (she was the most beautiful black woman ever)
she is 43 years old, though she looks like she is 26 or so. she was married when she was 18 yrs old to a christian man. they were married for 10 years, and were the best of friends the entire time. both wanted many children, and had already designed their dream house they were going to build. he died with cancer when she was 28. since then (as far as i can tell) she has been an airplane stewardess. she has a christian boyfriend now, but i dont know if or when they are planning on getting married. she still wants to have several children.
I honestly believe the Lord put us in this position so we could encourage her "in the faith", as Paul talks about in 1 Thessalonians 5:11 "therefore encourage one another, and build up one another, just as you are also doing".

Alright, now on to present tense in my life. :) since coming home from the Film Academy and Festival, life has been this joyous "what could happen today?! I cant wait to see what adventures are in store!".. and then i remember that i am no longer in San Antonio and i sort of feel deflated, like a tired balloon. It is a funk i need to pull myself out of, for though i am incredibly glad to be with my friends again, especially my daddy and my best friends whom i have missed so very much, its difficult to leave people you became close to over a week of learning. So i am working on my contentment again. my friends have been wonderful though, and are blessing me by putting up with my silly ridiculous moods and treating me as if i am one who is acting normal. *sigh* How blessed i am , and how miniscule i feel when realizing how selfish my moody behaviour has been!! Praise the Lord for new beginnings and early morning "slate cleanings" .
today in drama, we had to read at least 5 verses of a person speaking. a Biblical monologue i suppose one could call it. i chose and read Acts 17: 22- 31 :
"So Paul stood in the midst of the Areopagus and said, "Men of Athens, I observe that you are very religious in all respects. For while I was passing through and examining the objects of your worship, I also found an altar with this inscription, 'TO AN UNKNOWN GOD ' Therefore what you worship in ignorance, this I proclaim to you. The God who made the world and all things in it, since He is Lord of heaven and earth, does not dwell in temples made with hands; nor is He served by human hands, as though He needed anything, since He Himself gives to all people life and breath and all things; and He made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined their appointed times and the boundaries of their habitation, that they would seek God, if perhaps they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us; for in Him we live and move and exist, as even some of your own poets have said, 'For we also are His children.' Being then the children of God, we ought not to think that the Divine Nature is like gold or silver or stone, an image formed by the art and thought of man. Therefore having overlooked the times of ignorance, God is now declaring to men that all people everywhere should repent, because He has fixed a day in which He will judge the world in righteousness through a Man whom He has appointed, having furnished proof to all men by raising Him from the dead."

just thought id share that with you. goodnight, i am going to have some hot chocolate, and go to bed soon.

May God bless you as you strive to follow Him!!

B.c He Lives and Reigns
me

the art and procrastination of catching up

You know you are behind in updating your posts when you forget what your blog URL is.. at least, that is what has happened with me for the past month or so. i have been so almost overwhelmed with education, orchestra, swing choir, recooperating from my wrist sprain, babysitting, tutoring, and of course, whenever i got the chance, photography and excercising.. Travelling, of course, played a major role since mid-summer. i believe i have had something important going on every other week since either June or July.
Just last night, mother and i flew back from San Antonio, Tx, from the San Antonio Independent Christian Film Academy and Festival-- what an amazing,outstanding trip! i cannot wait til next yr, so i can go again!! the friends, the time with mom (dad sadly couldnt come), the funny madcap adventures, having abby take pics of me, learning about God and how to serve Him and extend His Kingdom through the use of filmography and the arts, and so much more! God has truly blessed my life incredibly just by having these precious people in my world-- and giving me a mind that can not only comprehend but continue the thoughts and wisdom and knowledge passed on to me.
Abby, a photographer friend of mine that goes to IPS (only the most amazing christian photography college ive found so far), decided she wanted to take some pictures of me at San Antonio (she was there as one of the official photographers for the events). so, here are the ones she put up on her xanga (http://www.xanga.com/ImageCatchers) :


i think my favorite is the second-to-last.. sadly, i do not have any pictures of my own to put up this time-- most of the film academy and festival was inside, and my camera does not take good inside pictures, the lighting ends up horribly. but i did get to play around with both Christiana (another IPS photographer friend of mine) and Audri (a good friend) 's cameras. they are so neat! they are both canons, though i didnt get to look at what kind of canon either were, they both reminded me very much of the canon 30D, so it was a joy to play with them!! :)

anyways, i am starting to learn embroidery in an after-school class-- at the moment, i am embroidering a heart, using green thread. Lord willing, when i finish it , i will be able to give it as a christmas present. i think i know who i shall give it to, for i cannot give it to my mother as she has already seen it.

well, now i am exhausted because flying at night doesnt provide much opportunity for sleep, at least, not if your name is mercy and you have just learned a wonderful way to witness.. but that is another blog all to itself which i shall try to post tomorrow. so until then,

because He Lives and Reigns

i am His